This magnificent design has been produced for Mearfest by Robin Brancher
from the NWOBHM God's Desolation Angels.
Robin is a very talented graphic designer
We are both incredibly pleased with this.
It sums up the fortieth Anniversary of the NWOBHM Beautifully and just seems right
Also Molly's hand is central, and as you all know our lost daughter is central to everything we do.
This design will be used comprehensively next year for Mearfest to celebrate 40 years of the NWOBHM.
Please find Robin by clicking the link above
Let's just get our heads around this....
Weapon UK are Playing Mearfest
on Sunday 2nd of June 2019
One of 14 NWOBHM bands
performing to Celebrate
40 years of the NWOBHM !
Yes you heard right !
Weapon UK for Mearfest
Danny Haynes and Jeff Summers have been so fantastic in their support for what we do. Thank you so much
This is Paul Cooper with the daughter of Geoff Tate who played Trillians....
Emily Tate the lead singer of the support band
'Till Death Do Us Part'
With Glennis Irish below wearing her signed Molly shirt from thirteenth of rocktober.
Today we have a feature in Inspired section of The Daily Mail. Its meant to be a positive and truthful piece about being a mum at 50 and how bloody hard it really is whatever age you are and whatever background you come from. It's been a dream come true and equally the most exhausting time of my life, which was the whole point of this article.
Interestingly there was originally just 2 of us old-er mum's, then they found 4, so cut our story down a lot. It seems more women over 45 are becoming mothers for the first time, our world is changing dramatically. There is no normal type casting anymore.
3 women of which had IVF treatment in European countries.
I started to read the online comments, but gave up after the 125th vile cruel typically Daily Mail readership trolls, who clearly had not read the article properly. I went into a mild depression after this came out. But this lasted a day! I'm not that kind of person who actually gives a fuck what idiots think.
We are all good strong and strangely energetic women and now mothers in this article, and yes, all of a certain mature age. I do not have any genetic issues that I have passed down because I am too old, I had been screened and cleared of such things before this process started. I am not a selfish mother, but a women who has struggled to have a family during my 50 years on earth, and against ALL ODDS, even after a full term stillbirth, I did it in the end. I have been happy to give up alot of things since having my baby. She comes first now, there is no me. My little girl is a very happy child, not sad, incredibly healthy and robust, not poorly looking! I have a lifetime of unique and wonderful experiences to pass on to her, I have more patience and time to give now, than when I was younger.
We as a couple are not rich in any material capacity, we now live on one income like everyone else. Nor do we have a ton of help, we have had no help, the article clearly says that there were times I wanted to just die with the exhaustion of it all. Yes, it is sad she will not know her grandparents, my husbands did pass away young, my parents are not worth knowing and is a blessing they are not around, but she enjoys many many of our friends who are all ages. I have no au pairs or nannies, and we can just about afford two mornings a week nursery fees, we have brought Amélie up on our own I have taken her out nearly every day of her short life, to many places of interest, meeting many people of interest. The result of this is she is growing into a beautiful balanced, well mannered toddler, full of character, curiosity and opinions, which is actually rare to say.
The biggest criticism was what if we die soon? She will not know who her parents are. Im sorry, but I have known many parents who died younger than I am now. Who started their families in their 20s, 30's and had sadly passed away before they reached 50. This breaks me every time I hear this, or attend another funeral of someone I know who has left their children. If I make 80, which most of my family have, I would have had a good 30 years with my daughter.
If she is embarrassed about having old parents during her teenage school days, well, isn't every parent an embarrassment when kids are that age, even famous film pop rock TV stars endure that. Please, you great british public, we will be fine!
Photos Ki Price.
When the devourer enters your gate
And the angel of death comes through your door
Whilst you sleep it snatches your child away
What is left is just a husk
A reminder of the joy and laughter that filled your home
Now just a whisper, a vapor of mist
The sting of death
The stench of shame that consumes you
As a parent you should keep your child alive
Healthy, Safe, Protected and loved
Friends alienate you....
You're a bad parent
You killed your baby
You failed as a mother, father
The idiot pastor says, you didn't have enough faith!
Your closest allies say it wasn't this or that
But keep away from me and my children incase they die too
Who's to blame for the cold stiff body that you've been holding now for hours
Begging God to breathe life back into your child
His lips have turned purple now
The coroner is here to remove "the body"
Days go by in a blur of tears and aching
The devourer hasn't left yet
You have to identify "the body"
Everyone is too afraid to say his name (Malakai, Malakai, Malakai)
Your rent hasn't been paid
You've used it to keep your child's body out of the stifled, crowded state mortuary
Everything that could have gone wrong has turned to shit
God's not saying anything
I'm hearing his cries and smelling his clothes
He's appearing to me in broad daylight
The shame slowly starts to fade
The devourer has departed
New blossoms of hope peak through the soil
It takes trauma to separate the chaff from the wheat
The goats from the lambs
You learn to face reality of the shipwreck of your plans and dreams, tomorrow
You wake up everyday with the choking memory of that brutal day
He appeared once more but this time as a man, he looked well and wise
Under the influence of angels
Trust the process
Keep love in your heart
Reject illusion and sorcery
Reject the shame
Healing takes place in isolation
Unexpected rays of light will appear
Expected comforts will disappoint
Pursue the mystery of the one who conquered that last enemy
Therein lies the hope of your reuniting
You are awake and unveiled
Blessed are the broken, the burnt, the pure
You will smile again
You will feel a new love and joy
You haven't betrayed your child with your happiness
But you've paid the full price for it
No discount, no special deal
It's cost you dearly but now it's true
Now go, set the captives free
By Matthew Le Grange .
Written by Matthew Le Grange, husband of Angeline.
Their baby Malakai died in September 2018 the day after being vaccinated.
He was 14 weeks old.
Father's we hear you.....
Fathers do have a voice within the dark silence of death
My aching heart is with them both
I believe Molly is with Malakai
And they are playing hide and seek within the stars
There are no words for this loss of life
Thank you for letting me share your words Matthew
Molly’s in Belfast with
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