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   ​MEARFEST BABBLE

A FATHER'S VOICE-MALAKAI LE GRANGE-WE MISS YOU

25/11/2018

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When the devourer enters your gate
And the angel of death comes through your door
Whilst you sleep it snatches your child away
What is left is just a husk
A reminder of the joy and laughter that filled your home
Now just a whisper, a vapor of mist

The sting of death
The stench of shame that consumes you
As a parent you should keep your child alive
Healthy, Safe, Protected and loved

Friends alienate you....
You're a bad parent
You killed your baby
You failed as a mother, father
The idiot pastor says, you didn't have enough faith!
Your closest allies say it wasn't this or that
But keep away from me and my children incase they die too 

Who's to blame for the cold stiff body that you've been holding now for hours
Begging God to breathe life back into your child
His lips have turned purple now
The coroner is here to remove "the body"
Days go by in a blur of tears and aching
The devourer hasn't left yet
You have to identify "the body"
Everyone is too afraid to say his name (
Malakai, Malakai, Malakai)
Your rent hasn't been paid
You've used it to keep your child's body out of the stifled, crowded state mortuary
Everything that could have gone wrong has turned to shit

God's not saying anything
I'm hearing his cries and smelling his clothes
He's appearing to me in broad daylight
The shame slowly starts to fade
The devourer has departed
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New blossoms of hope peak through the soil
It takes trauma to separate the chaff from the wheat
The goats from the lambs
You learn to face reality of the shipwreck of your plans and dreams, tomorrow 
You wake up everyday with the choking memory of that brutal day 

He appeared once more but this time as a man, he looked well and wise
Under the influence of angels
Trust the process
Keep love in your heart
Reject illusion and sorcery
Reject the shame
Healing takes place in isolation
Unexpected rays of light will appear
Expected comforts will disappoint 
Pursue the mystery of the one who conquered that last enemy
Therein lies the hope of your reuniting
You are awake and unveiled

​Blessed are the broken, the burnt, the pure
You will smile again
You will feel a new love and joy
You haven't betrayed your child with your happiness
But you've paid the full price for it
No discount, no special deal
It's cost you dearly but now it's true
Now go, set the captives free

By Matthew Le Grange .
FULL STORY:GOFUNDME
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MOLLY IN ST LUCIA

25/11/2018

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THANK YOU  
to the wonderful
Barrie Dorling
​for
 
wearing Molly
on Pigeon Island
St Lucia.


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MOLLY AT NEWARK AIR SHOW

25/11/2018

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FLYING THE FLAG
WITH OUR PATRON
DIBS HAWKWINDER

​THANK YOU DIBS...

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MOLLY IN BELFAST

25/11/2018

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Molly’s in Belfast with
vikki rutherford
at Boston & Union
live final for the 2018
Friendly Four Ice Hockey!

THANK YOU VIKKI

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THE ART OF MOLLY

21/11/2018

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ARTIST

STEWART ALLEN
BEDFORDSHIRE

The thumb is spot on
A lot of people miss this part
It was unusual to have four distinctive parts
In a newborn's hand 

To me, she feels grown up 
An adults hand 
Wiping away old cremation ash
Letting in new vibrant colour
Which is what her memory has given us all
As her life continues to radiate beyond the stars.
 
MamaMear

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MOLLY IN GERMANY

18/11/2018

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THANK YOU

MICHAEL BART

 works for german TV & Radio station SWR. 
HE IS responsible for the video production for SWR3 and DASDING.
 

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MOLLY IN NORWICH

18/11/2018

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THANK YOU
TO
SONIA FICHERA

FOR TAKING MOLLY TO 
Deep Purple Family Tree
WhitesnakeUK
​Pure Purple DIIO

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MOLLY INĀ  HELSINKI-hell fire!

18/11/2018

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THANK YOU
SO MUCH
​
NANCY RUSSELL

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MOLLY WITH HER BELOVED EMPEROR SATAN

17/11/2018

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Molly with Sandy McRitchie and Derek Lyon of Satan's Empire fame.
They packed their Kilts returning to home soil of Dundee for this weekends gig.

TONIGHT 17TH NOVEMBER AT GLASGOW SEE POSTER


Once again, a mammoth THANK YOU from us all at Mearfest HQ, for all your collective hard work, time spent in helping, assisting, managing stages, providing equipment, general support, enormous love, and much laughter at SOUTH SHIELDS. 




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MOLLY LOVES MANDORA

17/11/2018

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MANDORA have always been huge supporters of Mearfest from the very beginning of our Northern events.
Duncan Binnie is the master movie man as he has created many Mearfest promotional videos and helped organise our events from afar.
Paul you rocked when you sang TAKE MY HAND before Mollys hand, I shall never forget the pure emotion in the room, it was palpable.  
Darren, you are just so lovely and cuddly (Mrs M writing this by the way!!)
Sean thank you to you too as you rock them drums.

AND LIFE GOES ON FROM NEW ALBUM

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ACOUSTIC NIGHT WITH JACK AND MOLLY

17/11/2018

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THANK YOU TO
JACK MYLCHREEST

WHO PLAYED FOR US AT SOUTH SHIELDS
AND IS AN INCREDIBLE NATURAL TALENT





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MOLLY AT GIRLSCHOOL

17/11/2018

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A HUGE THANK YOU TO
PAUL COOPER

WHO IS with Molly and the very lovely
Jackie Chambers

​from Syteria/ Girlschool

at their recent gig with the Quireboys 

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PAUL YOU ARE A MEARFEST STAR

THANK YOU FOR ALL YOUR SUPPORT

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THIS UNIVERSE ROCKS

14/11/2018

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I actually cried when I received this in the post.
Appreciating the effort DOWN SYNDROME NORTH EAST have gone to, to say thank you.

I LOVE how they have recreated the day in their news booklet.
They are an incredible charity who are so involved with everyone connected.
This is a huge THANK YOU to everyone connected to us at Mearfest. For your kindness dedication generosity support and love.

To see the whole day click the button below
the story is ever evolving.....
​

Thank you. 
From Brian Claire Amélie and Molly Mear. X
MEARFEST WARS
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MOLLY HANGING OUT WITH TROYEN

10/11/2018

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YOU GUYS ALWAYS ROCK
WE LOVE YOU 
Steve McGuire
Steve Haslam
Jeff Baddley
Andy Stephenson

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MEETING A GODDESS OF THIS UNIVERSE

10/11/2018

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Sunday Brian and I went to The Shard in London to meet with our very incredible IVF giver of life Penny, who with her incredible team all helped to create Amélie in Athens Greece just over 2 years ago....

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SERUM IVF CLINIC are now hosting outreach clinics here in the UK, London and Dublin.
So more parents to be, from every walk of life, can have their first consultation
So many babies and new families have been created from that first consultation
I thank the universe for helping me find them in 2016
From our first consultation in Athens to transfer took 8 weeks, 37 weeks later Amélie was here
I now realise how very fortunate we were that our first attempt worked at age 49 years.

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This had a lot to do with: 
  • REDUCING WORKLOAD
  • RELAXING ABOUT THE WHOLE ISSUE OF BEING A USELESS MIDDLE AGED (!) WOMAN WHO CAN NOT DO WHAT A WOMAN IS MEANT TO DO, CHILD BARE
  • LOSING THE WEIGHT I HAD AMASSED THROUGH NOT BEING ABLE TO GRIEVE, I DID NOT KNOW HOW TO AS I HAD NEVER LOST SOMEONE SO PRECIOUS IN SUCH HORRIFIC CIRCUMSTANCES
  • LEARNING, THEN ALLOWING MYSELF TO GRIEVE
  • LETTING GO OF MY OWN TROUBLED CHILDHOOD AND FEARS OF BEING MY MOTHER
  • I WILL ONE DAY BE A MOTHER, A GOOD LOVING KIND MOTHER
  • TRUSTING ALTERNATIVE/MEDICAL PRACTITIONERS AGAIN
  • TALKING OPENLY AND SHARING WITH OTHERS
  • CHANGING MY RIDGED PERCEPTIONS AND VIEWPOINT OF THIS TERRIBLE EVENT
  • LETTING GO OF WHAT ACTUALLY HAPPENED TO MOLLY 
  • UNDERSTANDING IT WAS NOT MY FAULT SHE DIED
  • ACCEPTING I AM A MOTHER TO MOLLY, SHE IS ALWAYS WITH ME, I FEEL HER EVERYWHERE AS SHE NOW GUIDES ME FROM BEYOND
  • BELIEVING THINGS DO HAPPEN FOR A GREATER MIND BENDING BONKERS REASON
  • THE UNIVERSE CHOSE US AND GAVE US BOTH A CHOICE, EITHER DIVORCE, OR MOVE FORWARD BY GIVING US AN IMPOSSIBLE MISSION, THROUGH SOUL DESTROYING HEARTACHE TURNING LOSS INTO LEGACY
  • SETTING UP A CHARITY EVENT THAT HELPED US WITH OUR GRIEF, WHICH HAS NOW HELPED OTHERS THROUGH A COLLECTIVE UNDERSTANDING OF MUSIC, PHOTOGRAPHY, WORDS. 
  • FINALLY, RELEASE ALL LOSS FROM THE PAST
  • WELCOMING A NEW AND HAPPY FUTURE
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Grief can have a way of  hiding deep within our bodies. On the outside we carry on as best we can, we are in disguise, people think we are coping OK and fine, but inside we have created a hurricane of blackness and depression, pockets of mental illness, self doubt, unimaginable heartache, where your whole body aches for that child, hatred of your body which has failed you. 

Dads feel all this too, just as much, suffering in total silence, even though they did not carry the baby, they feel this soul crushing pain deep within their own masculinity. It really does take two people to make one life, everything is questioned, the answers can come in many subtle strange forms.   

These feelings are all very real after a miscarriage or stillbirth.
I now know all this halts a new baby energy from coming through physically and spiritually, as our mounting pain blocks their path in every direction from the birthing experience we call life.

free yourself
NEVER GIVE UP
  

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I found these words on SERUM IVF CLINIC Facebook page...

​“Birth is not only about making babies.
Birth is about making mothers strong, competent, capable mothers
Who trust themselves and know their inner strength” 
Barbara Katz-Rothman PhD


SERUM CLINIC finally made me a mother at 50 years of age. 
A strong, competent, capable mother.
There are no words to describe my eternal gratitude.
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MOLLY IN DALLAS USA

10/11/2018

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JOHN BELLINGER
YE HA COWBOY!

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MOLLY WITH DIAMOND HEAD IN ITALY

10/11/2018

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Diamond Head drummer Karl Wilcox  
rockin wearing Molly shirt
during a soundcheck for a gig in
PRATO ITALY.

KARL WILCOX AND DAVE BONNEY
WE THANK YOU.

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MOLLY AT MICHAEL SCHENKER-NEWCASTLE

10/11/2018

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THE GREAT JOHN LAMBTON
WE THANK YOU

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MOLLY IN PORT SAINT LUCIE- FLORIDA USA

10/11/2018

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Jacquilyn Stein and Ron Stein wearing his and hers matching
Molly-Shirts
Florida USA.


Ron Stein picked up on my Cloven Hoof post on facebook now we are friends.
Ron ran Lakeshore Record Exchange in the 80s and 90s in Rochester New York.
Apart from running a very successful record store he would host local gigs following signing sessions.
He has hosted such bands as Slayer, King Diamond, Savatage, Overkill, Kreator, Voivod,
Avenger, Raven & Metallica.
I still find it incredible that with within a second I can be in touch with Ron and his rich vein of rock and metal history.
His life is incredibly interesting and inspirational.


THANK YOU MR & MRS STEIN FOR SUPPORTING US.
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Ravens first US tour with Metallica as support.
The gig was put on by Ron Stein the poster is now resting!! in a museum.
Heavy Metal History
Rekindle a lost dream
Ignite the fuel
Of shrouded hope
With smouldering embers
And sparks of gold
Fan high the Crimson Heavens
With incantations exalt
Fragile faiths forgotten
Embrace the forge of Molten Metal
Burnishing your soul
For all eternity.

​By Brian Mear
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ABADDON T-SHIRTS AREN'T THAT BAD!

8/11/2018

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THEY ARE GREAT!

TO BUY ONE OF THESE AMAZING T-SHIRTS

IN SIZES 
M L XL & XXXL
£25 including delivery.
​GO TO MRS BRAYS FACEBOOK CLICK HERE.....
Email [email protected]

​ABADDON UK


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MEARFEST WARS

7/11/2018

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ITS HERE........

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MEARFEST WARS
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