After 40 weeks of hideous worrying and uncomfortable pregnancy, thinking you are nearly there, you are so excited about meeting the tiny life you have both created, then to be told there is no life left, your baby has died, it is unimaginable to many parents out there.
But it is real, it happens every day to many couples of every age, colour, religion. It has no specific agenda it just happens.
Brian and I are doing our best to first help our own grief, to share any snippets of understandings as to why this happened, to turn our loss into legacy and help others going through the same trauma. We wish to raise money for children with any disability as Molly had T21 Downs Syndrome which is a condition, but could have been disabled too, we will never know.
With the birth of our second baby girl Amelie when I was 50 years old, again we want to show that you can get through the pain, you can plan for a full and happy future, you can with alot of hard work and mental agility mixed with emotional strength become a family, to have that family you have always dreamt of. It takes guts to get back up and dust yourself off and start again so publically and at 49 years old when you think your life is over, what else is there to live for?
We both know that Molly is with us, crazy things happen alot. When I have done something amazing or Im in doubt about something, or if I am upset, a little Molly Maids van tootles past me and I thank my little guardian for tipping me the nod. I am never alone. And now we have Amelie and we could not be happier. I as a woman and grieving mother finally completed the birthing process, my body did what it was meant to do in 2013. I am now looking after this crazy little being on a minute by minute basis, we are growing together stronger as a team. I know when Amelie looks like she is babbling to no one, she is talking to her spirit sister and she too has a celestial guide in this lifetime.
Molly has helped many since she died and that makes our hearts beat louder and stronger to see her hand print worn by so many people all over this world within 4 years.
Our message is DON'T GIVE UP HOPE & ASK FOR HELP, TALK.
Below is a photo of Molly's baby grow that she was put into when she was born sleeping.
In the jar, her ashes.