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24/11/2020

It looks as if you can leave reviews on AMAZON, even if you bought ROCKER BYE BABY from our website.
Thank you to all the 200 + people who now have this book in their hands.
I am so grateful to you all.

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A FEW ROCKERS WHO BOUGHT MY BABY

22/11/2020

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THANK YOU TO EVERYONE

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ROCKER ALSO AVAILABLE FROM YPD BOOKS

20/11/2020

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I have a secondary outlet, my publisher's site at YPD BOOKS.
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If you wish to recieve the book in a beautiful presentation pack, personal letter from me, and a bookmark with guitar pick, please order from Mearfest.org. See below.

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ROCKER REVIEW by MOTORBIKE POLICEMAN-OUR JOHN B

19/11/2020

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Mamma-Mear...
Just finished this book. Wow what a read. Fantastic and with so much detail. I had tears in my eyes at parts and all choked up. A long journey with a beautiful result."
JOHN BELLINGER (LONDON MOTORBIKE POLICE)

THANK YOU
JOHN BELGE

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MY JOURNEY IS NOW IN YOUR HANDS

19/11/2020

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I'm finally reading Claires book.
I've read the various drafts and seen it evolve over the years
Claire started this before Amelie was even thought of
Before we changed Mearfest to a heavy Metal event.
This has been an ongoing project for six years now.
I have had every faith in her and this book.
I have had every faith in all that we achieve together.
We have created a legacy for Molly that is without doubt incredible.
I have a feeling this book is going to be very successful.
A week has gone by and it's in so many people's hands now.
I have read just four chapters and I'm crying like I have never cried before
Its reopened so many memories and thoughts.
I really don't know how we survived what we went through, I really don't.
Please support us with this
Claire's story deserves to be read it really does.
Not only amongst our closest of friends and family but to everyone.
Brian Mear

THANK YOU FOR THE VERY POSITIVE RESPONSES TO MY BOOK.
I do understand that this is a very emotive subject, I do not expect everyone to read this book in one go, or to comment about this or that part of it.
It is a personal journey for us all, especially if you have lost a child, or if other parts of the book bring up triggers from your own pasts. I respect all of you who have taken the time in supporting me by ordering it, then read it. But, read it at your own pace, as there are many layers to it.
I am here if you need any guidance or help.
This is a universal time of uncertainty, we must share our stories, talk, discuss, then let it all go.
I may not have grown up with a kind loving family, but I am certainly part of the greatest family on Earth, Mearfest.

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ROCKER REVIEW BY MEARFEST NORTH - GLENNIS IRISH

18/11/2020

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Oh my! This book is beautiful so well written.
I felt like I was in the room with you and watching it all unfold in front of me. Your words are amazing. Your book arrived so I thought I will just read a couple of pages and wow. I am hooked best book I have ever read in my life.
I refrained from tears until you said goodbye to Molly, when you were in the bath, then they flowed. You are both more amazing than I originally thought. This book is inspirational Amazing and so personal. Very well written your words are from the heart
Beautiful.
Glennis Irish (Mearfest North merchandise manager)

THANK YOU
GLENNIS IRISH

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AVAILABLE now on mearfest.org

16/11/2020

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COMING SOON TO AMAZON

ROCKER SHOP

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THAT'S A TURN UP FOR THE BOOKS!

16/11/2020

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THANK YOU TO EVERYONE READING MY BOOK.

This weekend has been BONKERS!
Saturday night, I had a moment where my whole body had goosebumps all over it.
Once you have read this book you will understand what that could mean.
I looked on Facebook to see so many friends had settled in during national lockdown, to read a book, my book, some of you have commented that you have not read a book in many years. This, is such an honour that you have also enjoyed the journey.
I have sent out 162 books by post.
All these people reading my words, my story, travelling along the same epic troubled journey through my carefully chosen words.

Please send in your reviews and from my heart thank you everyone.
My goal is to get people talking about their losses, their traumas, their pains, just release it into the world, write about it, talk about it, SING IT OUT LOUD, then let it go.
You do not own that pain anymore. We all have your back. We are a team, a family, we are one.

Sending so much cosmic love to you all.

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ROCKER READERS-MR HALLING

13/11/2020

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THANK YOU IAN

ENJOY THE STORY !

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ROCKER READERS-MR CHRIS TINKHAM

13/11/2020

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THANK YOU CHRIS

ENJOY THE JOURNEY

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I'M THE ROCKER BYE BABY PLEASE HOLD MY HAND BY BRIAN MEAR

12/11/2020

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I was born in darkness
Lifeless cold and still
But i was born to parents
Who have an iron will
No stone to mark my presence
No flowers cut to fade
No tree or bench or marker
Or monument was made
Yes I was born to silence
Encased in grief and tears
Born without the memories
That mark the months and years
But I was born with purpose
In darkness I bring light
I have a voice of thousands
In metal shining bright
In words i've gained mortality
I am known throughout the land
I'm the “Rocker Bye Baby“
Please hold my tiny hand.

ROCKER SHOP

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AT 11.11AM ON THE 11TH NOVEMBER 2020 BOOKS DELIVERED

11/11/2020

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Rocker Bye Baby books have arrived!
Oddly at the most auspicious of times.

This is the most incredible feeling to finally hold them in my hands, I feel a huge release of old energy and a welcoming in of the new.

We have sold over 100 copies already, so I have a lot of work to do over the next few days.

THANK YOU to everyone who has believed in me.

BOOK SHOP

NEVER GIVE UP

GOD BLESS THE 15 YEAR OLD CLAIRE, YOU DID GOOD!

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ROCKER REVIEW BY SUPERSTAR SAGE - LINNET KERR

11/11/2020

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A powerful story of hope and clear vision, truly a triumph! With a staunch connection to Spirit along with a brilliant sense of humour, her energy has the capacity to dislodge any bitter concretions, useless now and better for being washed away by tears of sorrow and of laughter. To whoever is reading these words, this book, ‘Rocker Bye Baby’, is a must-read. Enjoy the depth, richness, and intricacies of its layers. Celebrate this time, now, here together. One can only benefit from meeting Claire.’
Linnet Kerr (Retired RMT)

Linnet Kerr has been my Northern Star since 2007, when we met inside her little health food shop in Panajachel, Lake Atitlan, Guatemala. Her spiritual haven became my daily go-to place for several weeks. Linnet is a gifted intuitive and healer. Her melodic voice projects organic sageness outwards, around the beating hearts of her loved ones, soaring up to the skies into the cosmos and beyond.

Earlier this year, living by the sea in Norfolk, I became stuck in a rut with getting this book to its final level of completion. Linnet swooped in to help. She got to work fast, becoming my soundboard during this logically challenging, yet spiritually awakening year of 2020, amidst the frequent uncertainty of my creativity, when my brain was in meltdown, and my body wanted to give up all hope through physical exhaustion. Humanity, as a collective, was trying their best to navigate through the many shitstorms that witnessed baffling illusions. Linnet kept me within the eye of reality, focused, calm, and centred throughout. We rode every personal and global challenge together when, finally, it was the right timeline to release this important story into the Universe. And so due to the sensitive subject matter, we aimed for its birth to be on Remembrance Day. 11.11.2020.

Linnet you are my diamond in the coal.

THANK YOU LINNET.

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ROCKER REVIEW BY ROCKSTAR VOCALS- STEVE GRIMMETT

10/11/2020

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‘No book, no film, no play has ever made my cry like this, and I mean fully let go and cry, this story is a must read.’
Steve Grimmett (The Grim Reaper-NWOBHM)

THANK YOU SO MUCH STEVE.

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ROCKER BYE BABY - ARE ALL PRINTED!

9/11/2020

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ROCKER BYE BABY HAVE NOW BEEN PRINTED

DELIVERED AS PROMISED

11.11.2020

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ROCKER REVIEW BY WRITER/EDITOR/PRODUCER - DIANA RICO

7/11/2020

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‘Rocker Bye Baby engagingly weaves together mysticism, emotional intelligence, and hardcore reality. Claire Mear is a sassy guide through her own journey, from a rough childhood, through to fertility issues, the tragic loss of a baby, and, finally, a hard-won happy ending. Mear busts through comfort zones, takes life by the horns, leans into her own rawness, and shows us how our deepest vulnerabilities can lead to our greatest superpowers.’ Diana Rico (DianaRico.com)

  I first met Diana Rico in 2007, while travelling through the dusty streets of Panajachel, Lake Atitlan, Guatemala. We immediately connected sharing many interests. Diana is such an incredible creative in so many areas and a deeply spiritual person. I attended Shaman School in Antigua, where after twenty-one days of intense training, I became a Mayan Shaman Priestess, which is part of Rockers storyline. Diana stood proudly by my side as I received my personal ‘Pixolkakal’ shamanic power and authority at my final ceremony.
  During that time, I mentioned to Diana that it had been a lifetime dream to write a book, but I had no clue what that book would be about. Seeing as I had just spent the past two years travelling the world, doing crazy things like becoming a shamaness, I was not short of interesting stories. But I knew my story was still writing itself.
Seven years later, during 2014, a year after I had lost Molly, I believed that I was now the protagonist and the script of my life was heading for its final chapters. Diana urged me to write it all down. I had left school with one art O’level, having no confidence in writing anything at all, even though while I was travelling through South America, I had written a daily online travel blog called The Soul Cultivator which since, had been circulating significant interests from people all over the world. Without thinking about it, I had already been writing within the public domain, so why was I stalling? Complete fear was holding me back; I was too frightened to air anything about my whole life so publicly. However, it was not until Brian and I applied for fostering also in 2014, when the social worker asked if we could write a few words about ourselves so they could understand us a bit better. My heart began to pour out its pain, going right back to before my own birth, dissecting every moment, as I tried to piece together where it had all gone wrong. I didn't understand myself at this point, so how could a social worker understand me?
I wrote day and night, while working on film sets, hotels, in coffee shops, late at night, early in the morning, I could not stop writing. Then Mearfest was re-born in Molly’s name during 2016, where our story was suddenly becoming very public, it all seemed inevitable that this was a story that needed sharing.
October 2018, I thought I had finished my first manuscript. Amélie was a year old, and I felt that I had mastered a brand new craft, imagining Claire Mear-AUTHOR. Not so! Diana calmly pointed out that she could see I had an amazing flare for writing, but I had in fact written approximately four books within one manuscript. Since 2018 to earlier this year of 2020, I have diligently re-crafted every word, meticulously rejecting then refining this delicate story. Alot continued to happen during this process, including Covid and lockdowns, extensive reading and listening to podcasts, which brought huge shifts in my awareness and consciousness. Suddenly my use of the English language rapidly matured, it felt as if I was being guided by a higher force, to get this done, ready for the end of 2020.
Diana Rico is known as the midwife of authors. She oversaw Rockers conception and first trimester, where by another unique editor friend of mine stepped in to help complete this task. I asked Diana to give me her honest review of this my first finished written piece. Even though she knew my story well, a lot had changed over these final few months. When I pressed send my nerves were frazzled, as I have the greatest respect for who she is and what she has achieved in her lifetime. This review means the whole of Mother Earth to me. I thank you Diana from my heart to yours. Love is Love.

THANK YOU DIANA.

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ROCKER REVIEW BY THE REVEREND CARL FLYNN EDWARDS

6/11/2020

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‘There are books that in the reading of them are like butterflies. They bring a flash of colour and beauty and then, they are gone. There are other books that are like the rays of the sun. They bring light and warmth, in which one can grow. Rocker Bye Baby is one of these books. Claire takes the reader on a journey through her life; through difficult and painful times, through her experience of unimaginable loss. Rocker Bye Baby is not just a tragedy; it is a book which conveys hope and redemption. The spirituality within the book is different from my own and it may not be for everyone, but nevertheless, it is beautifully written and the silver thread that runs through this story, is so clearly one of love. Claire and her husband Brian are truly inspiring people. This book will change you.’
The Reverend Carl Flynn Edwards (Mearfest Chaplain)

The Reverend Carl Flynn Edwards found us at Mearfest through our patrons Dibs and Sam Hulme, as they live within the Buxton area. Since 2018, Carl has been a loyal supporter in all that we do, so much so he named his Harley-Davidson; Molly.
A big part of what he does in his parish are funerals, unfortunately he has had to lead some distressing stillbirth and babyloss services. Between us, we have helped each other through some pretty tough times. Carl kindly passed on our information to those grieving parents, where I am so proud to say that some lovely connections have been made, with one or two happy endings. We appointed him as our Mearfest Chaplain during 2019, to recognise all the good work that he does for our Mearfest community and for his own Parish.
Because he is a man of God, I asked Carl to read this book, as I question if there really is any God at all? Especially after such a devastating loss of a baby. What God kills babies? My journey explores my more liberal spirituality leanings, in some depth. At the age of nine, my crazy mother would drag me to the Spiritualist Churches; where pensioner lead faith healing circles and Ouija boards were our 'fun' activities for the evening. From that age I have always believed that there is life after death and reincarnation, therefore there must also be a life before birth, yet during many times within this life of Claire, I had felt dead within. I wholeheartedly believe we write our own life contracts, however harsh or unfair our current lives (and as a collective), seem to be. It is up to us to turn something so tragic into to something inspiring, that in turn helps others through similar, or we have free will to choose to do nothing at all and give up. This book explains where and how I found my answers and which pathway I took in the end.
Carl’s review has been written with honesty and from the heart, with my deepest gratitude and respect, I take a bow to him.

THANK YOU CARL.

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ROCKER REVIEW BY CREATIVE MILLIE -AMELIA GRIMMETT

5/11/2020

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This is a beautifully written biography that you will not just read, but you will walk Claire’s life journey alongside her. I can guarantee you will not want to put it down until you get to the end and then you will be left asking “what happened next?” Make sure you have the tissues to hand because you will cry and laugh a lot!
Young Claire had a lot to say and many opinions to give, but at home no one wanted to hear them. In fact, they did not want to hear her at all and muted her with violence. As a teenager she was set free when she was placed in the care of social services, which awakened her to realise that the world was literally for her creative taking. Not letting her childhood define her Claire went on to dress the stars, she was responsible for some iconic outfits (including one of THOSE Kylie Minogue outfits). She travelled Asia extensively, became a Guatemalan Priestess and helped countless people when she became an Ambulance medic on the streets of London and then side stepping working as a medic on blockbuster movie sets.
However, Claire did not skip joyously though her adult life. The hurdles got higher and pot holes bigger.
She endured unimaginable heart wrenching pain several times over due to miscarriages, and a full term stillbirth, with many periods of deep depression. But this did dampen Claire’s creative passion, it fuelled it. This book is proof that anyone can achieve anything, good can come from bad, no matter what their start in life, and that the phoenix always rises from the fire."
Amelia Grimmett (creativemillie)

I had first known about Amelia Grimmett when Brian tried his best to book her husband Steve Grimmett’s Grim Reaper, for our very first Mearfest in 2016 in London’s Borderline. Amelia is Steve’s wife and was his manager, at the time Steve was on various tours all over the world. A few months later, in January 2017 while touring South America, Steve was struck by a sudden illness, where he was taken into hospital. His leg needed amputation, which was devastating to everyone involved. Amelia was there for him throughout the most challenging of times. Brian and I had to help the only way we knew how to, by donating some money raised at our second Mearfest in Newcastle, to go towards Steve’s recovery. From then on friendships between us were forming, out of a genuine appreciation of our personal misfortunes.
We invited them both to Mearfest South in 2018, where Steve would perform one of his best songs, ‘See you in Hell’, with a young North-East band Culloden. This is when I met Amelia for the first time and liked her immediately. They both spent the whole 12 hours with us, signing, selfies, shaking hands, hugging fans, mainly my husband Brian, who was notably thrilled by their attendance.
I asked Amelia to read this book in its more primitive format and to give me some honest feedback; as I knew she has been through quite a lot of incredible challenges in her lifetime. She has suffered losses on a deep level and with her work with the church; she always wants to help others in need. Her opinion on my writing meant a lot to me, as she is such a strong, resilient, decent, creative woman of substance, who I respect hugely. She manages her own creative outlet on etsy please check her out. Creativemillie

THANK YOU AMELIA.

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ROCKER REVIEW BY RADIO PRESENTER-SAMANTHA GRIFFIN

5/11/2020

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From the first paragraph, to the closing line. Rocker Bye Baby is a rollercoaster of emotions. At times you spiritually feel that you are Claire and taking the journey with her, every step of the way. A heart breaking, heart-warming story of enlightenment and guidance. A delicate insight into infant loss and the legacy Molly has left behind'
Samantha Griffin (Ashford Radio)

I have only known Sam a few months, she found us during lockdown via some good friends of Mearfest as they all live in the same area. Samantha works for Ashford Radio as a presenter, she certainly knows her music and the media market. She also has a wealth of experience working closely with Down syndrome kids. So this story touched her heart in many ways. Samantha will be working with us at Mearfest on future promotions and events, once the world wakes back up again.

THANK YOU SAMANTHA.

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ROCKER REVIEW BY ROCKSTAR DRUMMER-ANTONY BRAY

2/11/2020

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Wow! What an extremely emotional experience reading this was. Utterly intense and compelling. Breathtaking.’
Antony Bray (Abaddon/Venom)

In 2017 Tony Bray strolled into Mearfest North at Trillains, I was 24 weeks pregnant with Amélie and I had no clue who he was. However, Brian was in raptures that he had turned up at all, later confessing it was a long-shot invitation! Antony Bray had been a founding member of Venom since 1979. They were the most influential NWOBHM band in history as they created the Black metal genre that went global. Tony had come along with his girlfriend, Rachel. He was a magnet to everyone there who knew more about his musical career than I did. He kindly allowed a zillion selfies to be taken, signing albums, t-shirts, maybe some bare naked chests? Shortly after, he set up his own band, using his stage name ABADDON.

2018 Mearfest North in Queen Vic, South Shields, Newcastle, is where Tony played his first-ever gig under his own name of Abaddon. We gave him the second top spot on the bill; It was a total SMASH! I absolutely loved it, as it was slightly punky in places. Tony's drumming is exceptional, and he really is a superstar showman. Mr Bray also brought along a special little guest, 6-month-old Anja. She was his first child with Rachel, who had since our first show become his wife. It was a perfect day.

Since then, Tony has supported absolutely everything we have done in the name of Mearfest. Unfortunately, Abaddon was meant to play both Mearfest 2020 gigs, North & South, but alas, bloody Covid put a stop to that.

I asked Tony to read Rocker Bye Baby as he is the proud father to two little ones, his son was born this year 2020 during national lockdown. I knew he understood all the stresses involved. I valued his opinions as a well-travelled and experienced man of this world.

THANK YOU TONY X

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About the Author

Claire Mear is a
54-year-old professional visionary.
She has travelled the world, dressed pop-stars and tended to the poorly and accident-prone.
In 2016 alongside her husband Brian, they created a charity music festival called Mearfest; in memory of their full term still-born daughter Molly.
This unique event conveys awareness to the plight of miscarriage, stillbirth, and Down syndrome issues. Claire’s mantra is to keep asking for miracles, then never give up! This is her first publication and another dream achieved.

Her personal script has
been based on a true story.

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A FEW ROCKERS WHO BOUGHT MY BABY

THANK YOU TO EVERYONE

ROCKER ALSO AVAILABLE FROM YPD BOOKS

I have a secondary outlet, my publisher's site at YPD BOOKS.
Please click the button below.

If you wish to recieve the book in a beautiful presentation pack, personal letter from me, and a bookmark with guitar pick, please order from Mearfest.org. See below.

THANK YOU

ROCKER REVIEW by MOTORBIKE POLICEMAN-OUR JOHN B

THANK YOU
JOHN BELGE

MY JOURNEY IS NOW IN YOUR HANDS

ROCKER REVIEW BY MEARFEST NORTH - GLENNIS IRISH

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GLENNIS IRISH

AVAILABLE now on mearfest.org

COMING SOON TO AMAZON

THAT'S A TURN UP FOR THE BOOKS!

THANK YOU TO EVERYONE READING MY BOOK.

ROCKER READERS-MR HALLING

THANK YOU IAN

ENJOY THE STORY !

ROCKER READERS-MR CHRIS TINKHAM

THANK YOU CHRIS

ENJOY THE JOURNEY

I'M THE ROCKER BYE BABY PLEASE HOLD MY HAND BY BRIAN MEAR

AT 11.11AM ON THE 11TH NOVEMBER 2020 BOOKS DELIVERED

NEVER GIVE UP

GOD BLESS THE 15 YEAR OLD CLAIRE, YOU DID GOOD!

ROCKER REVIEW BY SUPERSTAR SAGE - LINNET KERR

ROCKER REVIEW BY ROCKSTAR VOCALS- STEVE GRIMMETT

THANK YOU SO MUCH STEVE.

ROCKER BYE BABY - ARE ALL PRINTED!

ROCKER BYE BABY HAVE NOW BEEN PRINTED

DELIVERED AS PROMISED

11.11.2020

ROCKER REVIEW BY WRITER/EDITOR/PRODUCER - DIANA RICO

ROCKER REVIEW BY THE REVEREND CARL FLYNN EDWARDS

ROCKER REVIEW BY CREATIVE MILLIE -AMELIA GRIMMETT

ROCKER REVIEW BY RADIO PRESENTER-SAMANTHA GRIFFIN

ROCKER REVIEW BY ROCKSTAR DRUMMER-ANTONY BRAY

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I have a secondary outlet, my publisher's site at YPD BOOKS.Please click the button below.If you wish to recieve the book in a beautiful presentation pack, personal letter from me, and a bookmark with guitar pick, please order from Mearfest.org. See below. THANK YOU

THANK YOUJOHN BELGE

THANK YOUGLENNIS IRISH

COMING SOON TO AMAZON

THANK YOU TO EVERYONE READING MY BOOK.

THANK YOU IANENJOY THE STORY !

THANK YOU CHRISENJOY THE JOURNEY

NEVER GIVE UP

GOD BLESS THE 15 YEAR OLD CLAIRE, YOU DID GOOD!

THANK YOU SO MUCH STEVE.

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About the Author

Archives

ROCKER BYE BABY UPDATES

PLEASE LEAVE YOUR REVIEW

I have a secondary outlet, my publisher's site at YPD BOOKS.
Please click the button below.

If you wish to recieve the book in a beautiful presentation pack, personal letter from me, and a bookmark with guitar pick, please order from Mearfest.org. See below.

THANK YOU

THANK YOU
JOHN BELGE

THANK YOU
GLENNIS IRISH

THANK YOU IAN

ENJOY THE STORY !

THANK YOU CHRIS

ENJOY THE JOURNEY

ROCKER BYE BABY HAVE NOW BEEN PRINTED

DELIVERED AS PROMISED

11.11.2020