‘Rocker Bye Baby engagingly weaves together mysticism, emotional intelligence, and hardcore reality. Claire Mear is a sassy guide through her own journey, from a rough childhood, through to fertility issues, the tragic loss of a baby, and, finally, a hard-won happy ending. Mear busts through comfort zones, takes life by the horns, leans into her own rawness, and shows us how our deepest vulnerabilities can lead to our greatest superpowers.’ Diana Rico (DianaRico.com)
I first met Diana Rico in 2007, while travelling through the dusty streets of Panajachel, Lake Atitlan, Guatemala. We immediately connected sharing many interests. Diana is such an incredible creative in so many areas and a deeply spiritual person. I attended Shaman School in Antigua, where after twenty-one days of intense training, I became a Mayan Shaman Priestess, which is part of Rockers storyline. Diana stood proudly by my side as I received my personal ‘Pixolkakal’ shamanic power and authority at my final ceremony.
During that time, I mentioned to Diana that it had been a lifetime dream to write a book, but I had no clue what that book would be about. Seeing as I had just spent the past two years travelling the world, doing crazy things like becoming a shamaness, I was not short of interesting stories. But I knew my story was still writing itself.
Seven years later, during 2014, a year after I had lost Molly, I believed that I was now the protagonist and the script of my life was heading for its final chapters. Diana urged me to write it all down. I had left school with one art O’level, having no confidence in writing anything at all, even though while I was travelling through South America, I had written a daily online travel blog called The Soul Cultivator which since, had been circulating significant interests from people all over the world. Without thinking about it, I had already been writing within the public domain, so why was I stalling? Complete fear was holding me back; I was too frightened to air anything about my whole life so publicly. However, it was not until Brian and I applied for fostering also in 2014, when the social worker asked if we could write a few words about ourselves so they could understand us a bit better. My heart began to pour out its pain, going right back to before my own birth, dissecting every moment, as I tried to piece together where it had all gone wrong. I didn't understand myself at this point, so how could a social worker understand me?
I wrote day and night, while working on film sets, hotels, in coffee shops, late at night, early in the morning, I could not stop writing. Then Mearfest was re-born in Molly’s name during 2016, where our story was suddenly becoming very public, it all seemed inevitable that this was a story that needed sharing.
October 2018, I thought I had finished my first manuscript. Amélie was a year old, and I felt that I had mastered a brand new craft, imagining Claire Mear-AUTHOR. Not so! Diana calmly pointed out that she could see I had an amazing flare for writing, but I had in fact written approximately four books within one manuscript. Since 2018 to earlier this year of 2020, I have diligently re-crafted every word, meticulously rejecting then refining this delicate story. Alot continued to happen during this process, including Covid and lockdowns, extensive reading and listening to podcasts, which brought huge shifts in my awareness and consciousness. Suddenly my use of the English language rapidly matured, it felt as if I was being guided by a higher force, to get this done, ready for the end of 2020.
Diana Rico is known as the midwife of authors. She oversaw Rockers conception and first trimester, where by another unique editor friend of mine stepped in to help complete this task. I asked Diana to give me her honest review of this my first finished written piece. Even though she knew my story well, a lot had changed over these final few months. When I pressed send my nerves were frazzled, as I have the greatest respect for who she is and what she has achieved in her lifetime. This review means the whole of Mother Earth to me. I thank you Diana from my heart to yours. Love is Love.
THANK YOU DIANA.
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