I remember when the midwife gave me two bits of cream coloured card with my dead baby's hand and feet printed on them. It was about 10 pm just after she was born, I had just had a shower and I thought how lovely I had given birth naturally but how horrendous it all was that she was at that moment resting in a cooling cot, so she didnt go off, she was not coming home with us, I did not really register how important that bit of card would become.
I stuffed them in a memory box as I was desperate to get back to holding Molly’s lifeless body, she was outside of me now and here in the world just for a few more precious hours.
Her hands had traces of ink still on them as I kissed them and sucked the poison off her fingers, hoping it was poison me instead and I could join her, which ever heaven that may have been, it was all I could do at the time to feel close to her, to have her back inside of me, safe from harm. The next day she was taken away for post mortem.
This hand print is all we have left of her and to see it now, magnified behind drum-sets and live performing bands who are giving all they have to their performances and then to look beyond to oceans of complete strangers and lakes of good friends all wearing her printed hand which sits over their bewildered, saddened, giving hearts as they rocked the night away.
Her T-shirt has been taken on holiday with some of our supporters and friends. She travels the world like her mummy once did.
Its mind blowing, heart wrenching yet warming, peaceful and forgiving all at the same time.
By Claire Mear
She died two days before her due date at 39 weeks and 5 days.
She never took a breath or lived a day of her life
Yet she has mobilised hundreds of people to give of their time and their talents
She has helped formed friends and contacts from every continent on earth
Her hand has been reprinted on over 300 T-shirts, mindfully placed over the hearts of many
18 bands have played under her hand as a backdrop
£10,000 so far, has been raised in her name for various charities
Thousands of people have read her story
Molly’s hand print is not just a logo or a brand
Our angel of dreams our baby born sleeping
How does one single life unlived motivate and inspire many people from all over the world, to talk about their own loss after years of silence, to think and accept, to be and give of themselves and to those who are alive and in desperate need.
Well folks it has and we could not be more proud.
By Brian Mear
Brian & Claire Mear pride themselves on putting on a good show. Photography is Claires passion, only the finest collection of images will be added here by the best photographers. We both hope you enjoy the show.